Morality and the divided Self!

Let me be frank here without being much evasive in presenting my argument. Morality has nothing to do with selflessness and altruism. Most of the moralists would argue that when a women surrenders herself to her lover, a man dies for his nation, a mother sacrifices her sleep for her infant kid, an honest civil servant refuses bribe they all make sacrifices and all these examples cannot be understood as mere personifications of personal self-interest and motives without perversity of reason. The argument may seem quite convincing to some people. However, a deeper analysis leads us to another conclusion. A martyr sacrifices himself not out of sheer altruism but rather his own personal ambition. Apparently selfless looking acts are not devoid of human vanity. Here is the analysis..
When we perform such seemingly altruistic acts. We idealize a part of us (the idea of being a martyr, a loyal lover, good mother etc) more than the other part. And in doing so we sacrifice our other part in lieu of the idealized part. Therefore, morality divides the Self. I am very well aware of the fact that not to many people would like to think this way. Perhaps for them, its so immoral to be moral this way.

Dillemma!

Whenever finding myself torn between love and loyalty; I have always preferred loyalty. My loyalty towards love.

Unfortunate!

''As a young boy he was not fortunate enough to be close to religion but was really unfortunate to be close to religious people. He never recovered after wards, what a pity!''

True Friendship!

Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend - Albert Camus

Dream Figure!

Q-What does it mean to be loved?
Answer- To be a dream figure in somebody else's dream.

Sanity!

"Sanity is a madness put to good uses; waking life is a dream controlled." - Santayana

Rufus Wainwright - Across The Universe